Many people talk about how the Lord speaks to them. It may be an audible voice, it may simply be a feeling or intuition or it could be a bunch of circumstances that seem to be pointing you in a certain direction. For me, I guess it is through my daily devotion time. Last week I had a perfect example of this.
All week long I struggled with my son who has Reactive Attachment Disorder. If you don’t know what it is, take a look at some of my previous blogs, but know that this disorder causes chaos in a family. Monday, my journal reads “I woke to two loads of P’s stinking dirty, wet laundry in my washer and my dryer. Wet. Old. Stinky. Not the way I wanted to start my day. ICK! So frustrating.” Wednesday reads, “Oh Lord, bombarded with positives and negatives all the time. Help me to see my part in the negatives. Help me to work on me.” Thursday says, “We had a bad day with P yesterday. He stole from my purse. I want so much more for him than he does. He punishes himself. Lord help him and change me to figure out what I am to do.” Friday reports, ” The school called to say the P had been inappropriate. So much garbage!” Now, here’s where it gets good. Saturday: “I’m still struggling with Paul. It’s not my nature to be mean yet I wonder what it teaches him for me to give and give? Lord help me.” So, obviously, I was angry at the events of the week and I was trying to be standoffish, trying to employ the silent treatment, trying to make sure he knew how displeased I was with him. That very morning, I saw a shirt that he needed me to sew and almost sewed it, but I didn’t want to be nice. I stepped over his shoes instead of putting them away to prove that I didn’t have to care about his things. However, as I mentioned, it’s not my nature to hold a grudge. But, I asked the Lord to help me so that was a start.
I continued on with my devotions as I normally do and am currently reading a Once-a-Day Bible and was on Day 13. I obediently read blah, blah, blah, I will give thanks to you, Lord, with all my heart; huh? I will tell of all your wonderful deeds. I will be glad and rejoice in you; I will sing the praises of your name, O Most High. What? I will? It says I will. Good scripture. I’m moving on with my day, not dwelling on the negatives. I asked God for help and He will help and then I will tell of His wonderful deeds. Wonder when that will be?!
Lastly, for my devotion time, I turn to a book I’m currently reading. I open the book to where the bookmark is and read….and I kid you not….”When you are angry, humble yourself and give the anger-inducer more of Jesus. You need to give the person who has angered you exorbitant amounts of mercy, love, forgiveness, and grace because that is what Jesus has given to you.” I wrote “OUCH” in the margin. Think God might’ve been trying to tell me something? Yeah, so do I.
Knowing that I now had to “give thanks and tell of wonderful deeds” I used this example as an opening for Sunday School that morning. God does use our lives to teach us more about Him. Like the margin of my book says, sometimes I have to reply “ouch” to what He says! Be sure to listen up!