Well actually it said “Please Pry” but I knew what he meant. I received the familiar text while visiting my Mom. The pit in my stomach is as real as the PTSD I suffer from parenting a child from hard places. I now get to sit and wait for the phone to ring with the explanation of why I need to pray.
It could be that a friend is sick, it could be that he lost his key or more probable, he’s in trouble. He admitted at work to some wrongdoing on Friday so I knew that he may be facing consequences today and I thought I prepared him mentally for this. Did I? Does he “get it?” Will he learn from these consequences? Is there any way to rectify this wrong? I don’t know because I don’t even know what I’m praying about.
But, I do pray. When the bible says to “pray without ceasing” I didn’t realize that it meant that I would pray without ceasing for this child from the moment I met him. I didn’t realize that he would be in constant need of prayer. And, I definitely need more direction for the prayer. WHAT IS GOING ON? What am I praying about? There is a chance that I am the one needing prayer. I need prayer to actually be able to pray about this situation whatever it is. I am betting that I need to pray that I will have the grace to handle the call when it comes. I need strength to hear about yet another failing. I need prayer to not allow this situation to undo all the good that we have been working on.
So, you know what…I will pray. I will be thankful and pray that he will use the skills that he has been gifted with. I will pray that he is with someone who can comfort him. I will pray that the consequence is fair and just. I will pray that he will learn from his mistake. But in all honesty, I’m praying that the phone will ring and that this suspense will be over soon!
I’d like to tell you that I will fill you in later, but chances are, it won’t be something that I will care to share. BUT, I will give God the glory for getting us through whatever it is that we are going through.
And, hey, “please pray.”