It starts as almost a butterfly in your stomach and unless you acknowledge it and deal with it, it will overtake you. Sometimes you think it is just a bit of anxiety or nervousness but then you realize the beast that it is. FEAR!
Every day he starts with a little disobedience, a little lie, a bit of a bad attitude. No biggy, but compounded over time you realize that your annoyance turns into something much greater. You stop being concerned about being disrespected. You stop worrying that you haven’t taught him enough. You have moved way beyond trying to discipline, you’ve been at that for years. You realize that you have done your part and now you live in a constant state of fear. OR, you could if you allowed yourself.
Every now and then, you will be tempted to allow yourself to feel the full weight of the real fear that is there. You project what the future may look like. He will start stealing from others and not just from family. He will start lying to authorities and not just his parents. He will misplace his trust in someone who doesn’t love him as he disregards the wisdom of those who do. He may join a gang, experiment with drugs, dabble in pornography. Oh, given his history, any of these may be his reality. BUT WAIT! You’ve done all you can. You can’t allow yourself to go there!
You truly may have done all you can, but what you can’t do, God can. You are not limited by your own abilities, you have a creator and he knows your child intimately. He already knows the plans he has for her and for you. You are not to fear. I have heard that the Bible says “Fear Not” 365 times, one for each day of the year. I have found that that isn’t entirely accurate, but how many times should He tell us to “fear not?” He’s God. We should listen the first time.
So, dear friend, listen when someone tells you to “fear not.” It really is a waste of an emotion. It accomplishes nothing and it hurts you even more than it hurts your child. Remember, you’ve been afraid before and you will probably be afraid again in the future. There’s no sense staying there now.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear,
but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
2 Timothy 1:7